In My Dreams I Can Fly

In my dreams I can fly
I can walk on water
and do back flips on clouds
I can swim with the dolphins
and lose myself in music
I can also fall in love
and not get hurt
but that's only in my dreams
In reality, I can't fly
no one can walk on water
it's impossible to do
back flips on clouds
I can't swim
so that's a no to the dolphins
I may be able to lose myself
for awhile in music
but always have to resurface
and I can't fall in love
without getting hurt
it'd be awesome if these things
were possible
I guess I'll just have to
keep dreaming.

Beautiful

Every time I look in the mirror
I see another flaw
another thing that
takes me out of the category
of "beautiful"
I've been told I am
but that's my family
it's their job
to tell me that
why can't I be pretty
like all those other girls
or at least feel like I am
it'd be nice to feel like that
every once in awhile
yeah, I have insecurities
I may have low self-esteem
but I'm only a teenager
I blend into the crowd
for once I want a man
to look me in the eye and say
'my girl is the most
beautiful girl in the world
and that girl is you'
yeah, that'd be nice
can't wait for it to happen.

Drowning

I don't know why
I listen to love songs
they only remind me of him
of course that's all I do
think of him
that's not true
but sometimes it feels like it
the memories of him
are stuck in my head like glue
I never want to forget him
or our momentary happiness
but I want to make more
I want to find love
make happy memories
ones that won't fade over time
I want to find happiness
I need to find happiness
before I suffocate in this black hole
every day I'm drowning
I just wish someone would come along
and teach me how to swim.

A Broken Promise

All I asked for was one promise
and it was broken
I never thought it was difficult
he promised me
and he broke it
just like he broke my heart
I'm sure I broke his too
but I don't know how
all I asked for
was someone to love me
to be there for me
to keep me whole
and to not leave me
I thought we'd last forever
I thought we could make it through
I loved him with all my heart
he was my prince charming
but now he's gone
and I'm left here alone
with no one to comfort me
I miss him
Too bad it's over
I would've made him happy.

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I'm not bitter
okay, maybe about one thing
it breaks my heart
that he didn't trust me
scratch that.
It breaks my heart
that he believed her over me
the one he was with
a year and a half
that's a long time
to give yourself to someone
I put everything I had
everything I was
into that relationship
all for it to fall apart
and leave me to clean up the pieces
he was hurt too
but I felt it more
I felt it longer
hell, sometimes I'm still feeling it
it's been four months
you'd think I'd be over it
Nope, guess not.

Happiness

Every time I see your face
I think back to the times
we spent together
Do you remember?
when we were happy
I miss those times
Sometimes I think about
how it all went wrong
how I'm left lonely
while you definitely aren't
Yeah, sometimes I'm jealous
I think 'what's wrong with me?
He can move on
He can find someone new
but you can't
what's wrong with me?'
it makes me feel even lonelier
sometimes I'm happy for him
sometimes I with it were me
who was happy
but that feeling doesn't last long
I want him to be happy
isn't that what I've been praying for?
Yeah....happiness
too bad it hasn't found me yet.

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The tears run down her cheek
it's become a routine
she drags herself through the day
with a smile on her face
she waits until everyone's asleep
until no one can hear or see her
that's when her wall crumbles
it shatters like a fragile ornament
that rolled off the table
on the outside she's a normal girl
she's whole, she's happy
on the inside she's torn apart
she's broken, she's bleeding
she doesn't see the light
that's always at the end of the tunnel
she doesn't see the glass half full
she busies herself almost constantly
if she's busy the pain will stop
sitting still too long
pushes the glass in further
some days she's drowning
some days she's smiling
most nights she's broken
every time she thinks
she can escape the pain
it envelopes her tenfold
she just can't win.